Tuesday, September 14, 2010

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I blog when I have problems. HELL NO... Somehow I wish the next time I visit this blog, all problems are solved and I'm blogging about something really happy, something worth sharing. Not to say that problems are not worth sharing, just that most of the times it affects how your friends feel and you don't want them to be in the same state as you.

It sucks being in between but yet not knowing everything when many knows about it. Being retardedly stupid and insensitive that you didn't even feel that something was happening for a month or so. When I think about my life now, I link it to a drama. Many times, I thought I was really dreaming. But a dream that I must wake up from. I know how I feel but it's just difficult to say some stuff out especially face to face. Because I know how much it's gonna hurt and I don't want to lose a friend. That's why when you gave all the options available, I was lost. But if I'm not able to make things clear, everything drags, everyone suffer. Therefore, I decided that yes, I can do it. In one more day's time, things would be better. Maybe you will be sensible to realise how wrong you were to even feel that way.

But of course, compared to many, my problems are like really small. SO...NO I'm not gonna emo cause that's just wasting my life away. :)